Audio: Toni Packer 2000

The following talks by Toni Packer are available on CD.

February 2000 Retreat

Day 1	Expectations. A new attending. Perceiving what is actually here. The prison of knowing. Being present. Does this judging have to continue? Authority - wanting security.
Day 2	Judgment. Don't I need discipline? Does listening depend on what is heard? Is all judging narrowing? Is there good and bad judgment? All mental movements are fundamentally the same. Wondering what is real. How strong is the interest to look freshly?
Day 3	What is this "I"? Can one attend to everything at the same time? Reading, and finding out for oneself. Experimenting. Who is afraid, or hurt? Trace it! Intention, action and choice. To get underneath the language, to observe directly and question. Opening up into the unknown.
Day 5	Do we have free choice? Is there an independent, free acting "I"? What is responsible action? Is there the freedom to step out of the conditioning? What am I when there is no thinking about myself? Can thought figure out confusion? The reluctance to let go of this "I."
Day 6	Guilt. No separation between our faults and the faults of others. The root of our fault-finding: the idea of having a choice. About people on death row. Learning about human conditioning. Not being a target. Guilt preventing clarity now.

April 2000 Retreat

Day 1	Can there be a new way of listening? Listening without attachment, expectation, comparing, and authority. Listening, questioning.
Day 2	Is structure necessary? Is guidance necessary? Is it possible to perceive with judgment? Should one overcome desire? There is no place to go, it's all here.
Day 3	From where is one speaking and listening? The "me," the illusion of being separate. "Being with it" does not mean to think more. What does it mean to truly be with something? How does pain or grief feel if we don't think it's bad?
Day 5	Choice, the chooser, decisions. What is our greatest concern? Things are not the way they appear to be. What am I? Not knowing.
Day 6	The power of images and rituals. Is there someone behind our thoughts who chooses to carry them out? Do we come here to find a different reality? Can one discern the difference between thinking and listening? I think, therefore I exist. If I stop thinking will I cease to exist?

May 2000 Retreat in Sweden

Opening Talk	Finding out about silence. Another way of being in touch. A switch in attention, energy.
Day 1	Listening without memory. Authority and our relationship to each other. One whole perception.
Day 2	Is this all I am, the story of my life? Only trustworthy thing is presence/awareness.
Day 3	The danger does not lie in the seeing, but in the denial. Who is the owner of these thoughts?
Day 4	What is silence? What is awareness? Does it depend on this body-mind? What is love?

July 2000 Retreat

Day 1	What gets in the way of the wholeness of perception? Authority.
Day 2	Do I come here to escape the world and its problems? If there is no doer, does this mean I can't take action? Watching what leads to actions and reaction.
Day 3	Difficulties in relationship. Looking at problems. Finding fault in others. Problems at the Center. Looking with an open mind.
Day 5	Comparison. Is relationship a hindrance to spiritual life? What does it mean to be liberated?
Day 6	How do we affect others. Moods. How to live with all that goes on in the world.

August 2000 Retreat

Day 1	Listening, love, and compassion. Authority. Watching without judgment.
Day 2	Fear and anxiety. How do decisions come about? Guilt and responsibility. Stress and burn-out.
Day 3	Questioning into not-knowing. Anger. Suffering and attachment.
Day 5	Belief and insecurity. Belief and imagination; after-life, Kyle's death. Meeting what is directly.
Day 6	Praise and blame. Doing things for their own sake. Neediness, loneliness, aloneness. Continuity. Function of the brain. In presence there is no continuity.

November-December 2001 Retreat

Day 1	Meditative listening and what improves it? Can we listen freshly?
Day 2	Deep wondering beyond words. Is there some thinking without words? Intuition. Resistance.
Day 3	Self-absorption. Self-inquiry. What am I? What is this self?
Day 5	Compassion. Yearning for clarity and understanding.
Day 6	Why do I want to improve? Suffering. Root of restlessness.

California New Year's Retreat 2001-02

Day 1	Does listening require concentration? Is it possible for the mind to be open while concentrating? What is our true nature? How can I get it? What will happen if I disappear?
Day 2	What is the doer, the meditator? How to let go? Am I doing it right? Death. How do we know a person had a "dreadful death"? Waking up.
Day 3	Coming to retreat as a couple. What is the right way of being with each other? Coming upon something deeper than the personal. Is love an ego trip?
Day 6	Fear: a fountain of bubbles? The art of living.
Day 7	What is the point of seeing the image-making? Does awareness come and go?